Hi M1ch3lle. I am sorry to hear about your experience. I am not totally sure what you are asking. If you are asking about another free email service like Proton then Tutanota is similar in privacy and provides 1GB in storage (same as Proton free). Tutanota also has a paid version but Proton is the better deal. They are both $4/month but Proton gives you more storage. Tutanota has a $1/month version but you don’t get more storage vs. their free version so unless you want to donate $12, I am not sure it is worth your money. If you want to go back to the paid Proton version it will be on sale next Black Friday ( I am not sure if they have other periodic sales). There is probably other services out there but I am not familiar with them. I hope this helps answer your question.
P.S. I think it is awesome you keep trying even though you aren’t always sure of what to do. 🙂